After 9 months of leaving D4 it is time to make a small review. It is still very difficult to feel confident about my future considering my marriage situation, it brings a big emptiness (which started since we were fighting each other). But I stand for it, every day, I trust God that He will restore our marriage, this is also His promise. The world is full of lies, which bring sins and addictions. But I have 2x helpers (Chaplin & Fudé) and the help of my family (my mom and my sister), they are all in my life because God gave them to me, so I keep fighting. God also gave me my wonderful little wife that I married because I wanted to make her happy (but I took many bad decisions and neglected her). Meanwhile I work hard every day, and I have so many more things to learn and accomplish.
My mom has a friend at her church: she lost her husband in a car accident…. they have 2 children, you can imagine how the wife feels devastated, and despite all of her grief, it will never bring back her husband…
Meanwhile: I am still the husband of my wife, I want her, but she does not care about me. I don’t know which story is the most sad.
I will keep fighting for my marriage, because I love my wife. She is another gift of God.