Throwing all the stuff from home I realized that my life stopped when you left home more than 4 years ago on 7 Jan 2018. I still have the two things you left in the shower…this shows you how much I have waited… But I will continue to wait.
Four years ago: I was too proud to beg you to stay (I always thought that you will come back… but then the days, weeks, months, and years went by, and for some reasons you were still fighting me despite my call to have a calm relationship with you).
You can still try with your bf: I have been there, I have tried with a gf, it is useless, why lie to yourself, why force yourself when you actually are married and want someone else.
Have you ever asked yourself what marriage is and who created it?.. Anyway, this is another topic.
I realized that the 3 most important things in my life are:
1) my wife
2) my family (Chaplin & Fudé, mother, sister, father, Rose, Joe)
3) the animals.
The rest does not really have any meaning: travel (what for? with whom?), the economy (you cannot control it ANYWAY), programming (you just sell your brain to someone else – this is why I decided to make my own company), money (what good is it to be a billionaire if you have lost your wife?), owning this or that (you only need one bed to sleep), etc…