When they are hurt or in pain, many people (will) turn to sin(s):
-alcohol
-excessive gambling
-adultery (like I had done)
-theft
-idol(s) worship
etc…
They think that sin(s) will “make them feel better” (like I believed too), they even think it is a SOLUTION (like I believed this LIE too!).
But the Bible says: “the wages of sin is DEATH” (Romans 6:23). Sin is like a sweet poison: like sugar it tastes good but it kills you slowly… You NEVER feel good about/after it, because it DESTROYS you.
Not only that but sin is a TRAP, and the only way out is REPENTANCE (Proverbs 29:6).
Happy Hanukkah: may the light of God reaches you. You have a loving Husband that is waiting for you, always.