Boé & Chris

You cannot go against God

I did not tell you why Chaplin came back home. After years of dropping out of church, I decided to pray God to ask him to bring me back Chaplin. I promised Him that I will always believe in Him. And one week later: Chaplin was back...(while you had left

I do not want to divorce you

I have used the word "divorce" many times, not because I wanted it: but because I wanted you to STOP and CHANGE!... So I waited (like you) again & again. But the changes did not come. Worse: now you don't even talk to me at all... I have never wanted to divorce you. How can I do what I do not want?... I saw you

My logic is correct

Some things cannot be done because they do not work: There are many studies ("The Harvard Mastery of Stress Study" is one of them) that prove the following: a happy couple <==> a happy family It is so simple: I wonder how my logic failed to go through to you?... Just imagine:-how the kid would feel if I am not here ;-how the kid would feel if we keep fighting ;-how the kid would feel if s/he is not wanted by BOTH parents. In other words: the fact that I cannot have a family with you BECAUSE we both have a problem

I am scared

I am scared to tell her everything and send her the email I prepared for her. But somehow have to do it. But when??... What I am scared of exactly?.. I am scared of myself. I am scared of showing how wrong I was. And especially how amazing my wife

Welcome back from Denmark!

Your texts (and my answers) made me cry again. It reminds me of your (favorite?) episode, we watched this together on Nov 6, 2015:

Today I almost died

I recorded this quickly before my mom arrived home this morning: My sister called an ambulance and I went to the hospital from 9AM to 2PM. They did many exams but for the doctor there is nothing wrong with my body.Still, tonight I still have chest pain just next to

I want to SHOUT this

~I cannot stop myself writing this now~. How many times I have been trying to pronounce those words out to you: Boé, please, let's fix our problems before we both lose it all! But I have remained too calm, too silent. And even worse: I did not act to get

French Military-style marriage gone wrong

I have never ever wanted divorce and always talked about it as some kind of nuclear option that will never be used. This is called: Force de dissuasion In Bahasa Melayu/Indonesia it's called: pencegahan. It is the idea that no-one want this, and that the other person will change BEFORE

Savage Love

That's a good one!

All the reasons I married you

After watching this I thought I will make a positive post by writing down all the reasons I have married you. Reason #1: because I love you. Sometimes I wonder what is happening in your head, and especially about your values system. We definitely have a different one. I do