~I cannot stop myself writing this now~.
How many times I have been trying to pronounce those words out to you:
Boé, please, let’s fix our problems before we both lose it all!
But I have remained too calm, too silent. And even worse: I did not act to get closer to you, instead I pushed you away many many times, and in many many ways. I am aware of all of this.
Somehow I have always believed that you will (magically?) come back to me and say: “OK Chris, I will stop now and listen to you“… I have been waiting for those 10 words so much…it is painful.
I wonder what are the words you have always been waiting for?…