Happy WEDDING ANNIVERSARY 2023 DaRRRRRRRRRRRRling!!! I have been married to the wife that I love for 12 years now. It is said that the 12th year is the anniversary of SILK (maybe to get in bed a lot?! Meh, I have nothing! NOTHING!!).
I know that God will answer my prayers and bring you back (just like he brought Chaplin back). Maybe God actually prepared me to wait for you like I did for Chaplin, because he gave me back Chaplin just as you left our family?… Chaplin is my little living miracle that I can see (and touch) every day. So anything is possible: as long as we are both alive there is hope! For other husbands that lost their wives in an accident or to sickness: for them no more hope is possible…
I wanted to talk about this and compare how it is to wait for my wife VS how it was to wait for Chaplin!
=== SIMILARITIES ===
-in both cases I need A LOT of hope, which is very difficult because when the dark times come you have to avoid thinking about the worst and continue to have faith in the future.
-in both cases there is also a lot of sadness, and crying periods (T~T).
-there is a deep scar, and you always tell yourself: “if I had done this or that, it would not have happened”…
-in the same way that Chaplin was not lost (to God), you are not lost (to God either)!
-nothing can be done from my side: it is my destiny/life to experience this, I cannot change it (only God can)…
-I can only pour out my love, patience and courage.
=== DIFFERENCES ===
-there is a lot of guilt (at least on my side), but there is a promise from God that “if you forgive others of their mistakes, your mistakes will be forgiven”.
-Chaplin went missing for almost 1 year, but I have been waiting for my wife for many years, in fact, since you arrived in Ireland it has always been difficult somehow and I can say that I have been waiting for my little wife since that day (I always dream of a perfect relationship with you). However: once Chaplin came back it was as if I did not wait at all….which is very strange. Now I am enjoying every second of time with him, as if time became so precious.
-talking about time: every day that you reject me is a wasted day that will never ever be recovered… this is really the hardest part of all!
-I still have a lot to do and a lot to accomplish, so I just hope I will get the courage to do achieve all of my goals and win the race! If I die before you come back, it is OK, I have loved you and done everything I could until my end (and I have showed you and God that my marriage was EVERYTHING to me).
I thank God that we are still married and for this 12th anniversary!