After watching this I thought I will make a positive post by writing down all the reasons I have married you.
Reason #1: because I love you.
Sometimes I wonder what is happening in your head, and especially about your values system. We definitely have a different one. I do not value the opnion of others than the one I love and that are close to me. This is because I undersand clearly the difference between the world and the ones I love. The world is trash. However the ones I love are my world.
Reason #2: because I thought I would make you happy.
I can still remember on a summer day in Japan when we both went to 名古屋港 to watch the fireworks. And you got closed to me to whisper in my ear: “life is so great with you Chris“. I never had anyone told me this kind of thing before…
Also: I never really thought of marriage. I married you because I thought this is really what you wanted, and that it was the right thing to do. It was such a big decision for me (and it has to be). I cannot be blamed for my efforts.
Reason #3: because you are so cute!
I have always been attracted to you, it’s not a secret and there is probably nothing surprising with this reason.
Reason #4: I want to take care of you.
You are so unaware of many things in this dangerous world… If I do not protect you: whom will?.. Sometimes I see you so unconcious of dangers, you are almost like a child still learning. Your kiddy part is an asset and a liability at the same time.
Reason #5: I want(ed) you to have a different life than in Indonesia.
Regardless of my flaws, sins and failures: I have pulled you from there! Like a Knight coming to take his Princess away… Unfortunately for me: the Princess is often not so nice with her Knight, hahaha…
Reason # 6: I always believe(d) in you.
Somehow I have always waited for you to come to me and tell me how much you love(d) me. But this never happened… You have always been somehow distant and discreet about your feelings… But I have always believed you loved(d) me a lot.
Reason #7: I never imagined we will not get along.
When you do or say something I don’t like, I reject that it is you, and I am trying my best to make you change. I never married you to talk about divorce nor do it.
Reason #8: you were so positive (before).
I do not know why or how you have lost this side from within you. This is probably my problem because I haveasuumed you always remained positive. But you have a tendancy to focus on the bad things more than the good ones. But it is ok: you can always progress and becaome positive. I had hoped I would become this light within you, but I never did.
Reason #9: I thought you will listen to me more.
You do not value what I say or think… I tried to tell you many times: one of the duty of a wife is to obey her husband… While you have made some progress over the years, it is still uncomplete!
Reason #10: make a family.
The last reason~ I never had anything against making a family, but there is a path, there are steps that I need to have fulfilled/checked before I can consider this (last) step… It is like building a house, if you do not have your foundations right, the house is just going to collapse. In my case it collapsed before. So I was right to expect having requirements beforehand. I am the builder/sower here…not you!
This post was last updated: 25/AUG/2020.